crashycrashy

2010-04-27T12:36:00.001-07:00

I'm 26.

2010-03-09T14:58:00.000-08:00

After he asked me to be his girlfriend the first thing I said was ..
"well this is cool, we should make shirts!"

<3

Currently listening to Wet Hair by Japandroids

2010-01-09T18:49:00.001-08:00

I can't be by myself.

2009-09-12T21:50:00.001-07:00

With her heart opened up
And I want to tell her,
Your love isn't lost
Say,
My heart is still crossed
Scream,
You're so wonderful
What a dream in the dark
About working so hard
About glowing so stoned
Trying not to turn off
Trying not to believe in the lies
On your own

worst. birthday. ever.

2009-06-02T17:47:00.003-07:00

blah blah blah

Crash. Boom. Bang.

2009-02-26T12:01:00.000-08:00

Who would have thought thy the top ten ways to avoid being killed by zombies would actually be ten pretty decent tips for every day life? my friend Brian stopped this book by my work today and I only glanced at the back cover but here's what I found:

1. Organize before they rise.
2. They feel no fear; why should you?
3. Use your head: cut off theirs.
4. Blades don't need reloading.
5. ideal protection: tight clothes short hair.
6. Get up the stairs. Then destroy them.
7. Get out of your car. Get onto your bike.
8. keep moving, keep low, keep quiet, keep alert.
9. No place is safe. Just safer.
10. The zombie may be gone, but the threat lives on.

So, ok. It's about zombies, yes. .. but honestly, we can apply this to real life and get so much more from it.

be organized. be prepared. be ready for any problems that may arise. be fearless. take risks. put yourself out there. manage your time wisely. be fashionable. my short hair and tight clothes aren't just for looking cute. .. eff cars, ride a bike. work hard. set your sights high. when you get up, stay up. 8 is perfect life advice as is. keep moving, keep low, keep quiet, keep alert. perfect. don't get too comfortable. don't get in a rut, think you're safe and quit living. change is good. stay on your toes. it's like this, life is awesome, life's great. .. if you make it that way. cause honestly, it can just be one problem after another. kill one zombie, but there's another right around the corner. you know. but that is what keeps us going. challenges. growth. learning. get into it.

dudes.

2009-01-25T13:33:00.000-08:00

so, my iPhone started buggin' out a few weeks ago.
randomly shutting off.
freezing.
deleting text conversations.
glitch-o-rama

whatever.

I've been meaning to go to the Apple store and talk to somebody about it because it was totally driving me nuts.

And if you know me at all I would cut somebody for saying anything bad about Apple.. but I'm just going to go ahead and say that Apple and I are no longer friends.

I never once got my phone wet, yet they said it's water damaged.

People have told me that they too, "never got their phone wet" and were super pissed about not being able to get their iPhone fixed or replaced and I was like yeah, whatever.. you totally must have gotten it wet because Apple is amazing and they wouldn't be dicks about that. But seriously, honestly, I promise you.. I never, ever got my phone wet. I've dropped it and I've sat on it.. but wet? nope! and now? I either have to buy a new iPhone or get some junker through AT&T? I was on the phone with AT&T yesterday for like 45 minutes because they keep double charging me and giving me payment late fees when I've had direct withdrawl set up for my payments since day one.

So now I feel like I'm just stuck with two shitty companies.

I hate technology.
and I hate the fact that my word means nothing to some guy at a store in the mall and I'm supposed to just be ok with not being believed or trusted and I get fucked over because my iPhone just broke.

"This disk cannot be read from or written to"

This blows.

ok

2009-01-10T23:33:00.000-08:00

you have to take the good with the bad.
and smile with the sad.
love what you got, and remember what you had.
always forgive, but never forget.
learn from your mistakes, but never regret.
people change.
things go wrong.
just remember that life goes on.

word.

2008-12-29T07:32:00.000-08:00

. .. I guess I just really like the word 'grandiose'

Currently listening to Unless It Kicks by Okkervil River

jittery.

2008-11-18T20:21:00.000-08:00

I tell all my students that are dating scum bags and jerks that they deserve so much better.. .. they deserve respect, and trust, honesty and love. They are amazing girls and they need to stand up for themselves and love themselves. Fuck those guys who want to bang you in the school parking lot before class, but not hold your hand in the hall way. Fuck those jerks that get you pregnant and then tell all their friends that you're just crazy and made it all up for attention. Fuck those lousy boys who tell you you aren't perfect, that tell you you're faulty, that you're not good enough for this or that.. I tell all these girls these things. These amazing girls.. They're strong. They're bright. They're beautiful. They're smart, funny, loving. They're creative. They're energetic.. .. they are incredible. The girls feel empowered. They go home stronger. Taller. Prouder.. and I go home and lose it all.

I want to be empowered.
I want to believe that I deserve the best.
I don't want to settle.
I want to be ok with being alone.

I'm alone.
I want to be ok with that.

h.o.l.y. c.r.a.p.

2008-08-13T12:37:00.000-07:00

I have been trying for like a week and a half to post a blog..

It kept giving me a hard time so I gave up, and then just for fun I thought I'd give it a shot, and look.

I have so much to say, and remember and share but this morning I'm sore, grumpy, totally bummed
. .. and I'm going swimming at Jamie's house.

So kiss my bum.

Hopefully I'll get to do a post soon.

Some highlights since last time.
my birthday!
slot canyons.
rapelling.
kayaking.
roller skates.
class five rapids in an inflatable kayak.
hammocks.
BASE jumping.
skydiving.
summiting Utah's highest peak.
bike rides.
skipping rocks.
cartwheels.
rope swings.
swimming!
jumping off bridges and rocks in to water.
new friends.
mountain biking.
tree climbing.
fruit picking.
new music.
scorching taste buds off my tongue multiple times.
waterfalls.
mud fights.
tunnel flying.
climbing.
tons of good food. ..

ahh! summer..

love love

. ..it's so good to be back.

2008-05-16T09:46:00.000-07:00

hi hi hi

So, I'm back in Utah.
Kinda, mostly in Ogden.

I got this sweet, sweeet job.
I am dating a sweet, sweeet boy.

I've been trying to get in shape for my new job.
Emotionally, physically, psychologically. .. yeah.

I want to catch you all up to date, but I'm sort of in a hurry! :)

I've been going through classes and seminars about everything!
From how to use a compass, to how to check someone's level of consciousness and blood pressure, to changing the way I view the world and the people around me, and how I see myself in relation to the world and the people around me.. .

I've been hiking tons. Backpacking. Climbing. Biking. Running. Skydiving. Lifting weights. ..
I'm exhausted on so many levels..

BUT!
I'm doing awesome.

I feel like I'm constantly pushing myself.. and I love that!

I make yummy/healthy dinners at night and work out and play outside during the day..
My work schedule is 8 days on, 6 days off.. I have 4 more days off and I already feel like a slacker!

ha ha ha

I'm sick of living out of a backpack when I'm not even camping!
but I don't want to pay rent on a place that I'll only be at 10 days a month, or less.

blah blah blah

I wish I had more time to see all my friends and family as much as I want!

I miss Arizona. I miss the desert. I miss my friends out there.
I love Utah. I love the mountains. I love my friends here.

I'm a little mess, like always..
and I love it!

laaater dudes.
xO

The girl working this coffee shop is looping Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds by the Beatles..

feets!

2008-04-09T14:46:00.000-07:00

wind!

2008-04-09T13:36:00.000-07:00

Two pots of coffee and a Red Bull lead to impromptu dance-parties in the hangar with a dude by the name of Merlin, making up dance moves and double rock, paper, scissor battles at 7am.

I made bow-tie pasta on an outdoor grill in the wind and downloaded 32 new songs whilst doing my neighbor's dishes.

I haven't blogged forever, and this is why..

a whole lotta something's about nothing's.. .

I don't remember where we left off..

I live in Arizona, as you know.. I think I'm coming back soon though, so it was really more like a real long vacation. I have a killer tan and a couple more skydives under my belt. I kinda wish I didn't come down here, but I have had a lot of fun.. Ogden/Salt Lake was just as fun though.. maybe just a different kind of fun..

I sleep on a couch every night.
I live in a trailer with an adorable girl and a cat I want to punch.
I clean the inside of my car once a week, and by the end of the week there's like 3 inches of dust on the floor, the dash, the seats, the everything. ..

I sneeze a lot.
I get a lot of bloody noses.
I drink a lot of coffee.
. ..and beer.
Lots and lots of beer.

I can walk anywhere in this city and get like 50 hugs.
I lay by the pool and ride my new bike a lot..
I have a bunch of new friends and new toys.
My clothes always smell like campfire..
There's always a bonfire somewhere.
Every night!
My neighbor has a kick-ass fire pit and a hot tub..

and have I mentioned my spectacular tan?

I hope you all are doing well, I'm going to go play in the dirt.

Out.

Currently listening to A-Punk by Vampire Weekend

I am certain there is too much certainy in the world.

2008-02-08T07:55:00.000-08:00

I need to thaw out.
I want to be around people that want to be around me.
I want to laugh every day.
I want to go to bed every night feeling totally exhausted from doing so much stuff and being so busy.. work, fun or anything!

I want to be exactly where I am, doing exactly what I'm doing right now..
which is really not that much..

and that's fine!

Currently listening to Kids by MGMT

umm. ..

2008-02-01T14:51:00.000-08:00

my life is rad.

I woke up on some strange couch..
wearing some strange pajama combo..
with a strange feeling in my tummy
and marker all over me..

Probably a good night?

I feel like I have whiplash though, which concerns me.

Currently listening to Cornerman by St. Thomas

Comfy!

2008-01-29T07:50:00.000-08:00

Hey, what the crap, it's 18 degrees.

umm, I'd like to kick off this post with a few goals for 2008.. I guess you might say they are my resolutions, but it's not like; "lose ten pounds" or "stop biting my nails" although both of those are perfectly relevant.

1. Go scuba diving.
2. Learn how to swim! (perhaps not in that order)
3. Hike Havasupai... or as I like to call it Havasu Pie (yum!)
4. Really learn how to B.A.S.E. jump!
5. Build up, branch out and expand my vocabulary ***good story to come
6. Keep in better contact with old friends.
7. Travel. A lot. (which goes hand in hand with #6)(Jackson Hole for a week, New York, North Carolina, Seattle. ..)
8. Get on some kind of career path.
9. Do more of the things I love with the people I love.

Okay.

***So anyway, yesterday I was working at the Apple store and I helped a little kid who was probably about 10 years old and he was talking about learning Garage Band. I said something a long the lines of; "Yeah dude, you can learn so much if you just come to one of our free workshops back at the studio, it's a lot of fun, those guys would be stoked to help you learn anything you want!" and his response went a little something like this: "Well, I understand that but I think it would be a lot better idea to get better acquainted on a Mac first and then move on to learning more about the programs I'm interested in. I think being able to understand and navigate on my computer better would be more helpful once I do get started with making music, or movies like I really plan on."

No shit.

1. Wow.
2. Later when I was telling a fellow employee about this kid I used a word completely wrong. I was trying to say that he was like, articulate, I guess and I actually used the word poignant.. What?!
3. A 10 year old speaks better english than I do.
4. Sucks.

And last night I played on iChat for a few hours and I talked to Shane. He sent me an email a couple of days/weeks ago and caught me up to date with his life and what's going on and I realized that I have a lot of super great friends spread out all over the place and it's going to be a goal to spend more time keeping in touch, and hopefully even visiting some of them this year.

um, I have an issue where I keep buying housewares and kitchen appliances, dishes, rugs, lamps picture frames, etc.. and I don't even have a place to live. I'm pretty much homeless right now aaaand I have some kick ass coffee mugs, a super cute couch, a dope ass lamp, a nice little dining room set and a comfy bed. ..

Weird.

I'm aware that my posts are completely erratic and bipolary..
This post was brought to you by an excited, focused, happy little girl.. .
The next one might be from a depressed little wreck.

wait for it.. .

Currently listening to: Good To Sea by Pinback

YEAH!

wikky whoa.

2008-01-17T19:04:00.000-08:00

so um, hey. ..

I got my hair cut and I feel like a dude more than ever!

aaand, I am stressing out crazy-like over my jobs and my car and my living situation aaand the fact that alls I want to do is skydive!!

but enough of that for now, I'm getting a shoulder rub at work from my friend Jason.
he said my back is "crunchy"

Out.

Hmm.

2008-01-15T19:41:00.000-08:00

Let down.

2008-01-15T14:08:00.000-08:00

I'm bummed on who I am these days.. .

I have no money.
I have no attention span.
I don't know what I'm doing!!!

So depressed.

Quick question!

2007-12-26T19:49:00.000-08:00

Is it okay for a 24 year old to wear messy pig tails still?

gosh, I hope so?!

SO STOKED FOR ELOY!!
I leave iiiiin um, 3 days?

happy. happy. happy.

Is there anything better than cranking the wheel and doing e-brake turns in the snow?
I think not!

I love you all. I had an amazing Christmas.. I hope you did too!

.. and my apartment search begins. ...

xO

Holy whoa..

2007-12-21T00:22:00.000-08:00

I'm so busy.

work work work
bills bills bills
drive drive vroom

coffee.
music.
money.
food.
friends.
work.
money.
work.
work.
snow.
laughing.
laundry.
music.
coffee.
work.
food.
friends.
playing.
work.
sleep.
coffee.
food.
money.
and lonely sleepless nights..

xO

Currently listening to:Red Light Pledge by Silverstein

we miss teej!

2007-12-03T16:06:00.001-08:00

Miles says he has a muppet mouth..

Currently listening to I Feel It All by Feist

love it.

2007-12-02T00:58:00.000-08:00

umm. .. my job/life rules.

Currently listening to The Boys Of Summer (cover) by The Ataris

Peace.Love.Death.Metal.

2007-11-29T21:13:00.000-08:00

I have to make a list of things I love every once in awhile
to remember why I wake up in the morning.. (emo!)

Haha.. but really...
Some mornings when it's like 24 degrees and I wake up alone and wonder what the hell I'm doing it's good to think about all the millions of things that make me smile like when I get to yell "Jinx! You owe me a soda!" or when I go to the coffee shop in the morning and the old guys that go there every morning say "good morning little lady" to me.. haha.. I love when I hear my phone make the "new text message" sound. I love painting my toe nails pink! I love pumping my fist to rockin' songs when I'm driving. I love red vines! I love my freckley shoulders. I love looking through my iPhoto library. I love having photo text parties with Plamer. I love sticking my tongue out at people. I love doing thumbs up photos. I love making playlists and editing dorky little videos. I love warm bread with apricot jam. I love playing in the tunnel. I love saying "sit to sit front flip, bitch!" I love watching snowboard videos. I love texting my dad. I love my dad. I love watching my parents play with their new iMac. I love my family so much. I love it that Malachi texts me now.. He's like 10! I love skateboarding. I love dancing in my room by myself in my underpants and singing in to microphone looking objects I can find on the floor. I love outerwear. I love house plants. I love mangos! I love hugs. I love going to the gym. I love apples and fresh cucumbers. I love my new handlebars on my bike! I love wearing gloves and scarves and coats. I love wearing flowers in my hair. I love reading through recipe books. I love rubbing my feet together to make them warm in bed at night. I love skydiving. If you're reading this, I probably love you too!
xO

Currently listening to: Miss Alissa by The Eagles Of Death Metal

Thanksgiving!

2007-11-25T07:39:00.000-08:00

So, I hate the holidays.

Really.

I am, however, stoked on my new job, and my old job just keeps getting
more and more fun. I've been flying in the tunnel like 10 minutes a week
or so. I just learned sit to sit front flips. I'm so excited about that.
You have no idea! I've been so busy. I work every single day.
Not even kidding. I've had one day off in 6 weeks. .. and I love it.

I miss TJ.
I miss Plamer.
I miss Sunday morning sleep-ins.
I miss the sunshine.
I miss wearing shorts and mini skirts.

My parents just got an iMac and I think I'm going to go help them figure it out tonight.
I'm so happy they switched! I hope they love it. How could they not?! Right?

Well, I work in a second (of course) so I gotta bounce!

vroom!

Currently listening to Dream Of Pop by Ming and Ping

best.weekend.ever.

2007-11-15T00:13:00.000-08:00

Some travel site said that these are
the top 5 reasons to go to North Carolina..

1. Landscape variety (Rolling waves, rippling
inlets, glassy lakes, salt marshes)
2. Pirate lore and hidden booty
(pow pa pow)
3. Their 7 historic lighthouses
4."The Lost Colony"
5. Fresh seafood

I only need one..

Currently listening to: The Kill (the acoustic version) by 30 Seconds to Mars

Fall in love!

2007-11-15T00:03:00.000-08:00

I want to open vegan cafe in a tree house with a rope swing and tons of pastries and no parking spots but tons of places to lock up your bike! It will have tons of yummy teas and all around the ground outside will be a garden and there will be a dance floor so people can slow dance with their loveys and there will be midnight movies in the summer that will play outside and you can bring wine and a blanket and cuddle up and watch romantic comedies and documentaries with your best friends..

<3

I'm all alone.

2007-11-07T08:20:00.001-08:00

Hi, I'm Stephanie and I'm completely confused.

Life is so easy and fun, but at the same time it's rough and baffling.

I work a lot now.
I'm dating a lot.
Everyone says it'll be good for me..
I'm not so sure?

I lay awake in bed thinking about my 3 billion options that face me every single day..

With work, my friends, my happiness, my living situation, my health, my car, my
money, my heart, hell.. even my plans for tonight or even what I'm having for lunch!!

My brain is exhausted and my heart is drained.

It could just be that this is how I feel every morning when I wake up in a room with
nothing but a bed and some clothes strewn about on the floor.

I feel incomplete and alone..

As the day goes I get more and more excited about my life
but waking up alone definitely puts a bad spin on things.

Blah.
Sorry to be a bummer.

I'll probably write a super stoked blog later, cause that's what I do.
I'm a bipolar mess... and I need some coffee..

out!

Lesson learned.

2007-11-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

Home brewed beer makes little girls
pass out way before their bed time.

Currently listening to: Arms by Seabear

(get it!)

excellent. ..

2007-10-31T09:46:00.001-07:00

Happy Halloween!

2007-10-31T09:42:00.000-07:00

I don't feel good.

Currently listening to: Sea Lion Woman, by Feist

um, wow..

2007-10-29T07:12:00.000-07:00

So the past few weeks have been nuts!

I started my new jobby at Apple.
I'm stoked as hell.
I'm not a salesperson but they're going to teach me how to do what I'm 'sposed to.

I already hate the drive.
I like driving back, it's relaxing after a full day of brain pounding training..
but yeah, it's still like a jillion miles.

I am way happy, and scared, and bummed and terrified and
I'm ecstatic, but nervous. I'm learning so much in such a short
time. I'm doing exactly what I want to be doing, but then I wonder
"is this what I really want to be doing?"
I haven't skydived in like 3 weeks,
I haven't hung out with that crew in just
as long. I feel like alls I do is work,
but I'm not even a millionaire yet.. weird.

I just got this DOT mac account and so I got a new email address, I'm
mostly going to use it for work, I think.. but I can't wait to learn about
all the web sharing and all the other goodies that go along with it.

I went to Sawadee with Sias the other day and we were talking about the different types of
people we hate, which is completely crappy of me. I really never find myself talking random
crap anymore.. like, look at that girl's hair or whatever.. I don't do that! But, I was
saying how I pretty much hate anyone who is in school. Because they're always like
"blah, blah, class this and books that, college college, I'm smart" and then I started
working at Apple and they keep talking about opportunies and moving up and I'm like
Yeah! and I'm all motivated and want to be the epitome of smartness.

Haha.

But, I'm going to go check out schools (for reals this time) this week.

Business degree?
Design?
Smart stuff?
Books, class, blah blah..
I'm smart!

I'm totally eating philly cheez steak sandwiches tonight aaaand tings!

ymu yum yummm

Currently listening to: Here In Your Arms by HelloGoodbye!

Sure Genesis was rad, but I still like Phil Collins.

2007-10-25T12:53:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was like the greatest accomplishment of my life.

Haha.

Sad, but true.

I woke up way early, like 6:30 early. Which I think is pretty good for having the day off. I cruised to Grounds and got a super large coffee and then talked to Plamer on the phone for like a half hour.. . It's a bummer when you have feelings for someone who is on the opposite side of the country.. and you know being with them doesn't work, but you want it to.. but you don't want it to at the same time.. ahhh!

Story of my life, actually.

I went to the gym, showered, went to the bank, got gas in my car, went grocery shopping and then headed to Salt Lake. I got to the Apple Store at noon and filled out all my paper work and then I went to Barnes and Noble for vegan cookbooks and the book The Stranger, by Albert Camus. Apparently it's about existentialism (?) yeah, I don't know. My friend Scotty recommended that I read The Plague by the same dude, but then Jeff swooped in and said I should read The Stranger first.

Anyway, I got the book so that's that.

Then I went to Great Harvest, visited with Rand and talked about me working there for Christmas and helping out on the table cause they need some extra kneaders. I'm stoked. I ate like 4 slices of bread and ended up rolling out the door on my side.

Not.

I went to Jamba Juice with Tim and put oil in my car, then I met up with my mom and got new tires. Vroom!
After that I picked up a new bumper for my wrecked-ass Jetta and I dropped it off with Justin at Thirty 20 so he could get it painted for me.

I went to Sawadee (yum!!) with Sias and then I stopped by Wild Oats to pick up a new tooth brush and stuff for Philly Cheese Steak sandwiches and rootbeer floats! Hell yeah!

Then I came home and crashed!
Jeff stopped by at midnight and I woke up just enough to tell him about rootbeer floats.. which was supposed to be a secret.. gah!

zzzzz

Now I'm at coffee drinking too much work.
(I really did type it that way just now. I caught myself but let it slide cause it shows how crazy/tired/exhausted/dumb I am.)

honk shoe.

I feel like a million bucks.

2007-10-23T16:35:00.000-07:00

My friend Jake just took me to get a massage.

It was the most amazing thing ever.
First they put me in a steamy shower and rubbed this scrub all over me,
then they rub mud all over you and there's so much steam in there you
can't see anything! Then I drank grapefruit water with a steamy towel
on my face and a heat pad thing on my neck.

Then the hour long, full body massage happened.

Wow.

My skin is the softest it has ever been in my entire life and it's glowing and pretty and I'm so relaxed and comfy.

The lady said my back is rock hard.
I took it as a compliment.

Get buff!

Oh yeah, by the way, you can call me Princess Stephanie from now on.

thankyouverymuch.

har har

2007-10-18T13:05:00.001-07:00

Two cannibals are eating a clown.
One cannibal turns to the other cannibal and says ...

Does this taste funny to you?

:)

warm and tingly

2007-10-18T12:50:00.000-07:00

I can't wait to start filming random beautiful things
and editing them together to songs that make me smile!

Check out IsenSeven

Currently listening to Over and Over Again by Clap Your Hands and Say Yeah!

haha!

2007-10-17T17:06:00.001-07:00

right as I pressed PUBLISH POST
Jenn called me and told me I
got the job!

suckas!

sweet sweet yes !!

phOneTAG

2007-10-17T16:53:00.000-07:00

Okay..

So I didn't want to really say anything about it so far, as to not jinx myself but I think my two interviews with Apple went so great and now I'm just waiting to hear from them. I'm nervous because at the second interview I met the other dudes who want the same jobby as me and they are all middle-aged, computer savvy, smarty pants wearing slacks and ties while I'm just a little kid with tattoos and a pony tail, wearing red vans!

Yikes!

But I think Noelle and Jenn really liked me and they talked to me a bunch..

but now Jenn sends me this email saying that she has been trying to get ahold of me and my phone has been busy for two days and she really wants to talk to me.. she gave me the store number and her cell phone number and said to call and I did but I can't reach her and I'm freaking outttt!!!

ahh!

I'm going to go drink some beer, watch Knocked Up and eat a humungous plate of vegan nachos!

Hell yes!

I worked like a gazillion hours this week and I'm beat!

I think I'm going camping on Friday and umm... I've been riding my bike a lot and I can't wait to find out about Apple and I've been reading and hanging out with awesome people and yeah. .. I'm pumped!

I love you all.
I really miss my family and my friends in Salt Lake and I miss Teej and Dresden and Plamer and friends in Eloy..

My heart aches to spend time with all of you again.
Untill then, go eat some icecream and popcorn, cookies and nachos!

Love eachother and smile often!
Know that I'm thinking of you!

Tootles!

Today.. .

2007-10-15T00:08:00.001-07:00

is one of the best days I've had in a very, very long time.

I stayed up till 5:30 lastnight/this morning editing videos together on Final Cut Pro <3
Then I woke up at like 11:00 am (slackass) had some coffee.. went to the drop zone and got my parachute all packed up and hung out with my friends.. then I picked up this kid Jeff who just moved to Ogden from Portland and works for Salomon.. he has a fixed gear bike, drinks tons of coffee, snowboards, listens to podcasts and likes Rilo Kiley.. he is friends with George, a super rad kid that I jump with in Ogden all the time. We made Jeff go on a plane ride and watch us jump out. I did three skydives today and packed just a little bit and then Jeff, George, Drew and I went to The Pie. We ate tons of pizza and then I went over to Jeff's and watched The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy, cuddled up with his dog Murphy and drank some really good beer.

I'm exhasuted..

Today was awesome though..
Hanging out with Murphy, who is a teensy tiny weiner dog, makes me miss Dresden more and more.

I hope to someday soon have my own little place and have Dresden over for sleepovers and come home from work, cuddle up with him and read books.

That sounds like heaven.

I sincerely hope that all of you can enjoy your lives as much as I'm enjoying mine.

The past few months have been extremely rough for me, but today I just focused on good friends, great skydives, an amazing sunset and a million other bad ass things worth living for and realized I am truly happy and I'm so ecstatic about everything that is going on right now.

Peace. Love. and Pizza!

xO

Second interview at Apple tomorrow! Wish me luck! ... .or Post comments! haha..

Curently listening to 1234 by Feist

flOwrider!

2007-10-11T21:42:00.000-07:00

I went on a hike this morning with Cade
and Sugi and watched Cade fly his Nano,
it was sick! I can't wait to go paragliding..

I worked a bunch today and then I just
played on the Flowrider and got worked!

Now I smell like feet and feel like crap!

My life rulezzz.
Moab tomorrow?

And here's my little pumpkin pie that I love and misssss...

Currently listening to: I Will Follow You In To The Dark by DeathCab For Cutie

Jeeze..

2007-10-09T17:46:00.001-07:00

I miss this guy.. <3

cute!

2007-10-09T13:42:00.000-07:00

Do you think that birds ever want to put on human
suits to see what it feels like to go for a walk?
p.s. bird drawing by Joe Fowler.. :)

wow.

2007-10-05T11:48:00.000-07:00

So, every time I go to write something on here I just get kind of overwhelmed..
cause it's like where do I even start?! ya know? I'll catch you up!

um, my sister Jamie came up to Ogden and did a skydive. It was like, her third tandem I think.
I offered to pay for her to do her level 3 jump and help out to get her certified so we could be
like two super hot sister skydiver babes, but she declined. Ass!

I jumped out with her and Ky-Ky but she didn't get pictures or anything or you bet
your ass there'd be like 50 of them on my blog. She is so cute.. .

My dad came out and did a skydive like a few days later. It was awesome. I did it for his birthday,
I jumped out with him, so did Brendan. I introduced Brendan to my parents.. it was cute.

What else?

I went to Vegas with Laura and saw Toni and finally met Christina!
I had so much fun.. it almost made me want to move to Vegas. Almost.
Getting drunk every night is fun and everything, but I imagine that it gets old.. maybe?

I got to see a Cirque Du Soliel show. It was the Beatles one.. it was amazing. My mind was blown!

Haha.

I get to start working at the wind tunnel soon. Tuesday actually.
I applied at The Apple Store and I think I have a fairly good chance at getting that job.
Thanks Teej! :)

I finally got all my speeding/parking tickets paid. Sweet.

I was going to move out of the house where I live with Davy and Skylar but
Davy is giving me a break on rent and I'm going to stay here.. .

Skylar is finally back from stupid Italy.
His head is still a little screwy.
I can't remember if he was always a little goofy or if that's something new..

umm.. I'm kinda sick and shaking for some reason.

My life is nuts right now!
I keep feeling like I'm supposed to get a real job and
I'm supposed to have a nice car and
I'm supposed to be responsible and I just don't wanna..

I just want to travel and skydive and play in the tunnel with my friends!

okay, more in a little bit.. Skylar just got home and there's a ton of people here and I can't focus.

Love you all.
Well, most of you...
haha..

byebye

Well said Thomas..

2007-09-25T06:17:00.000-07:00

"If you aren't in over your head,
how do you know how tall you are?"

-T.S. Eliot

coOkie.

2007-09-23T21:46:00.000-07:00

My friend Skylar was hurt in a car accident in
Italy. He was there for a BASE trip. He was in
Switzerland and then headed to Italy to jump
this huge cliff called Brento (I think?) and got
hit by a bus the day they were supposed to
leave to come home. He had, like a small
fracture in his skull and had to have surgery
and now they aren't going to let him fly home
till his head is all fixed up.

He has been gone for three weeks
now and I'm getting so bummed out!

He would listen to me go on and on every single
day and we hung out every single day and ate
junk food in bed, and watched movies together
and slept on the air mattress in the t.v. room,
and went on bike rides and flew in the tunnel
and got in tickle fights and we eat and eat and
eat and drink beer together and I miss him
soooo much!!

Skylar come home now, please!
Fix your beezer and get outta there!

Currently listening to: Some super crazy movie that Davy, Rusty, Plamer and the Hollywood Tunnel guys are watching Blah.

Kalvin

2007-09-19T22:44:00.001-07:00

nothing. piled on nothing. floating in the sky.
attached to a kite. blowin in the breeze.
looking down and judging everything it sees.
strangers. creeps. geeks. has-been's.
wanna-be's. judges. jurys. liars. cheats and
thieves. babies makin' babies. c-section scars.
radiation suits. lego maniacs. heart throbs.
dirty old men. scandalous young girls.
rehabilitated rebrobate racehorses.
nothing piled on nothing. floating in the sky.
attached to a kite. blowin in the breeze looking
down and judging everything it sees.

umm.. .

2007-09-19T13:59:00.000-07:00

I'm tired.

swift kick in the seat of the pants.

2007-09-14T07:43:00.000-07:00

So, I'm sure you've all already noticed this,
because people on the outside of the chaos
can see it a lot more clearly than, say, the
guy in the driver's seat of the car that is
now engulfed in flames in the middle of
the interstate.

I am not happy.
Ever.

Do you agree?

It hurts my feelings to even say that about myself.

I am that girl.
I am the grumpy little kid sitting in the corner with her arms folded.
Pouting.

I thought I was fun.
I thought I was happy.
Really.

But I am slowly realizing that not only am I depressed,
but I'm in a constant state of unhappiness and I find
myself wondering when things will get better for me..

Hey.. things don't just get better. Right?
You have to make things happen.

I don't even know what I want.
Like, I don't have an end result I'm shooting for..
I don't even think I want to stay put long
enough to attend even a semester of college.

ick.

I hate my attention span.

I want a million different things, yet I can't even start to work towards one.

I want to be 8 years old forever.

Goal for this week:
No tickets.

Thanks for the hook up!

2007-09-13T17:04:00.000-07:00

ceej tattooed me last week.

yum.

make it stop!

2007-09-12T21:57:00.001-07:00

whoa.

2007-09-04T10:05:00.000-07:00

I jumped off this bridge last week.
I can't wait to do it again.

Currently listening to Farewell by Electric President

Horoscope kick in the face.

2007-09-04T09:40:00.000-07:00

You may feel so confident that you take on
too much and try to deal with overly
complicated relationship issues.
Keeping it simple at the beginning is much
easier than trying to fix it after the fact.

It's like all I see is black and white.. .

Should I enjoy the gray area?

shake, wiggle & bounce!

2007-09-03T20:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday.
I peed in the wild for the first time ever.

booyah!

I've never been so alright with it.

2007-09-03T11:17:00.000-07:00

I smell like sweat and campfire and my body hurts from sleeping in a tiny ball in the front seat of a truck. My hair's all nuts lookin', my face/hands/legs/clothes are black and dirty, there's marshmellow melted to my jeans, I melted my shoe, I'm dead tired, and my tummy hurts from too much junk food. ..

but I couldn't be happier.
Camping is awesome.

Now, gimme a shower and some coffee it's time for work.

Currently listening to: Somewhere Over The Rainbow by Israel Kamakawiwo'ole

Twitta!

2007-09-03T10:40:00.001-07:00

Hey, I started a Twitter account.

I think.

It's supposed to update and tell you what I'm doing.

I think.

I am supposed to be able to update it from my phone or from aim.

I think.

It's effing confusing.

xO

Currently listening to: Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

skillz.

2007-08-26T23:43:00.000-07:00

I'm getting ridiculously good at changing my
clothes anywhere and revealing nothing to the public.

Observe:

As you will notice in figure 1:A I am in a parking
garage and I am putting on my sports bra under
a tank top that never left my body.

No body parts that should not be seen by the
public eye were revealed in the process.

Living out of my car is rad.

Love you, bye.

awesome!

2007-08-26T23:29:00.000-07:00

I'm laying in bed with Skylar because our disgusting
room mates have really loud, totally sickening sex all night
long and my room is next to theirs.

I laughed so hard from taking these goofy
pictures that I started crying.

I love Skylar.

Currently listening to: Enya

2007-08-26T20:27:00.000-07:00

I am physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted.

I'm alone.

I wish I had someone to curl up with and talk about my day.
I wish I had someone to hold me till I fell asleep.
I wish I had someone.

Why do I let people have so much control over my state of mind?

stop this train.

May you find nourishment in your solitude.

2007-08-16T15:35:00.001-07:00

Team Ramrod.

2007-08-16T15:04:00.000-07:00

I am having a good week.

I locked my keys in my car, I put my bare butt on Davy's car, scrubbed the bathroom floor, took a nap in a 700 degree room for no good reason, went to dinner with Davy, Sky and Shannon at the Olive Garden, Sky passed his rigging test, I tried to learn how to poke my thumb through a can of beer, (I thought it would get me dates) I went grocery shopping, I got some new lotion that smells really good, I rode on the Flowrider and thought I broke my ribs, I worked out a bunch, I played around in Brendan's wing suit, I did a few skydives, I read, I hung out with Cade and Skylar till like 2 am, and looked through a Maxim magazine for like an hour.

I wish that I was taking a nap right now instead of getting ready to head to work, though.

I flew in the tunnel yesterday with Skylar and Plamer coached me on sit flying.
He said I did better this time than when he was teaching me in Eloy and that made me really, really happy.

Me, Sky, Sugi and Brendan hung out at the Drop Zone last night and colored in my tattoo with markers, that's always a good time. I watched them pack their BASE rigs and we took silly pictures and just talked till like 2 am.

My phone has been acting pretty nuts lately so if you've called me or sent me a text and I haven't answered or responded it might be that I didn't get it.. or I'm just being an asshole.

I started packing at the drop zone a little. Mostly to just make a little extra money so I can jump more often.. I really want to jump tons and get a rig and a helmet and a camera and evvverryything.

blah blah blah

I just bought a Social Distortion album on iTunes.
It's sweet.

I talked to Teej yesterday for a little bit,
He has been in New York for 2 months now!
He seems a little happier than he was at first.
He just got a Bianchi fixxy.
What a snob!

Skylar ad Davy are the best room mates ever.
I'm having a really, really good week.

"Boyfriends are nice.
Ex-boyfriends are mean.
Best friends are just honest."

Haha, thanks Sky.

Currently listening to: Mommy's Little Monster by Social Distortion

lOngbOarding. Get gnar.

2007-08-07T02:46:00.000-07:00

Holy.
I went long boarding for the first time ever the other day.

Let me just tell you that I totally kick ass at it.

Oh yeah, and I flew in the tunnel the other day and
I was learning how to sit fly for the second first time.
Davy was coaching me.

I don't know if I did very good or not, but I was stoked!
Skylar has the DVD and I have yet to watch it.

I don't know what hurt worse afterward:
My face from smiling so huge or my damn
shoulder muscles from pushing against the wind.

I love everrryyything!
I'm hungry.

Remember when I was an intellectual?

Currently listening to: Les Os by The Unicorns

impressive, young padawan

2007-08-02T08:29:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was cool.

I worked a few hours at the coffee shop, which I used to sort of hate but now I love it..
I've made a lot of friends up here just from working there and it's really awesome.

After I got of I went to the drop zone and I was walking over to see if I had any money left on the books so I could skydive with Cade and Suzanne asked me to start putting these cd's in cases and before you know it; 2 hours goes by and I'm like answering the phone and making calls and sticking stickers on stuff and helping out.

So, I worked. I guess?
I had like 8 dollars on the books but I worked and made enough to jump.
Haha.

I did a sweet ass jump with Cade, Plamer's brother, (Sorry, didn't know how else to explain who he was) and that plane was sick.

We get to 13,000 feet in like, 9 minutes. No shit.

Anyway, we tried to do this exit that takes up a lot of room out of a super small door and we didn't pre-plan it at all so it didn't really work. I bent over to grab his ankles and realized he had shorts on. Bare ankles don't makde for such a good grip.

I smacked my knee on the door and it hurt like a biotch.

But in freefall we were just like cruising around.
We managed to get a high five in. We did some turns and back flips and stuff. It was Cade's 25th jump..
Which I think is awesome, cause now he can get his A license and skydive anywhere in the world.

Word.

After I jumped I packed my parachute. (Weird)
And then I packed Tommy's parachute. (Weird)

I think I want to start packing out there on weekends for some extra moneys.
Atleast make some money so I can jump, ya know?

Okay.

I got really, really drunk last night and tried watching Borat.
I almost peed my pants at the bar. Seriously. So close.
Who knew Sugi was so damn funny?

I laughed so much yesterday..
My skydive was hilarious, Suzanne was being silly as hell, Sugi and I made up a hand shake that will put all other hand shakes to shame, and Borat.. effin Borat..

Okay, I'm going to breakfast with my new friend, Jake.

I hope everyone else is having as much fun as I am.

xO.

soul searching/web surfing

2007-08-01T14:41:00.000-07:00

I've had like 6 million cups of coffee today.

I went to Twin Falls, Idaho last weekend with Ellen, Whitney and Toni. Girl's are so much fun to hang out with. I had more fun than I've had in a long, long time. I got to watch Ellen and Whit jump off the bridge a bunch and we played in the Snake River. We stayed in a super sketchy hotel in Jerome. I shared a bed with Ellen. She's probably the most adorable person I've ever hung out with.

A couple of hours before we went to Twin we went up to Pineview Reservoir and played around. We bought floaty toys and just layed out on the beach and stuff. It felt really good to get out in the fresh air and clear my mind a little.

Girls are seriously so much fun to hang out with.

What else, what else.. .

I love staying at Davy's house.
I love hanging out with Skylar all the time.

Me and Skylar flew in the tunnel yesterday.
We are pretty much the best belly flyers this world will ever see.

Sike.

You should see how tan I am. It's kind of creepy. My face is so sunburned and my lips hurt.. .

Anyway,
Life is too nuts to try and figure it out, so I'm just going to have fun instead.

I love you all.
From the bottom of my smashed up, torn apart, aching little heart. <3
Call me. Text me. Love me.

Currently listening to: Bike Rides & High Fives by Rosa

I want some pizza.

2007-07-19T09:52:00.001-07:00

That's all.
Pizza.

Bad.

My whole life is falling apart.
Everything is sucking..

But I firmly believe that some pizza would fix it.

Atleast for a little bit.
Eff.

whoa! whoa! whoa!

2007-07-17T23:53:00.000-07:00

Smoosh is playing Kilby Court on the 30th!
I'm so there..

Silversun Pickups are playing In The Venue on the 29th.
I'm so there too!

Finally.
Live music.
Ahh.

thanks dad..

2007-07-17T22:23:00.000-07:00

Hello friends.

I'm sleepy.

Okay, so I think I live in Salt Lake.
I definitely quit one of my jobs in Ogden today, and cut back to two days a week at the other one. I have all my crap at my mom and dad's house and I'm starting work with my sister in a few days. I'll hopefully be starting back at New Movie Corp. in the next week or so, as well. I just hafta meet up with Timmer.

I want money.
I want so much money.
Money. Money. Money.
Money is the root of all evil.
no no, that's wrong.
It's the root of good and happy.

Here's what I want..
(I'm finally ready to work my ass off for them too.)

A scooter.
A car.
Hair extensions. (is that weird?)
Tattoos.
A rig.
Coaching in the wind tunnel.
Tons of skydives.
Spur of the moment vacation money.
A big huge tv.
An apartment.
A new camera.
An iPhone.
A sweet iMac.
A desk for said iMac.
About 50 more pairs of booty shorts..

Sidetracked.. hang on..

YOu know what I really, really, really want?
I want to get the shit out of Utah.
I love you all.. I really do.. but I'm over this place.. I'm bored. I get bored easy. I've done the whole "Salt Lake" scene.. I checked out the Ogden thing.. and I'm not into it.

I think I'm just an unhappy 13 year old girl stuck in a 24 year old's life and body.. (a damn fine body, at that)

I just keep thinking about how hard it is to be an adult.
How hard it is to care about things that are stupid.. and give your money to things you don't neccesarily want but that you need. ..and buying your own groceries? Buying your own anything really.. Why can't I just be like "But mommy, I neeeed this 80 dollar purse, all the other girls in school have 80 dollar purses and I won't fit in if I don't have one.. pleeease?" That used to work. Kind of. Well, sort of. For like, a t-shirt or something. Hypercolor was the best invention ever.. and I totally still wish I thought boys had cooties. I wish that was something I carried with me from 2nd grade. My life would be a whole lot easier.

I hate growing up.
I hate being responsible.
I don't, however, hate neon green pajama pants.

Hey,
Anybody know of any good punk rock shows coming
through Salt Lake, Ogden or anywhere near by?
I'm in the mood for a little dance party.

My big lonely bed is calling me.

Thank you Mom and Dad!
Thanks for dinner, thanks for my new brakes and rotors, thanks for letting me crash here, thanks for letting me cry on your shoulder, and thanks for the cookies.

Goodnight cruel world.

p.s.

2007-07-17T21:35:00.000-07:00

Hey Teej!
Hope you're doing well..

Just wanted to acknowledge the fact that you read this too!

Haha!
<3

fun.fun.fun.

2007-07-16T08:30:00.000-07:00

So um, I should be stressed out..
I think pretty soon I will be..
Or maybe I am?

I had like 200 dollars "on the books" at the drop zone so I went out just to hang out on Saturday and Laura was like, "Are you jumping?" and I was like.. "uhh, sure.." and right after I landed Ellen wanted to do a jump and then later that day Ryan wanted to take me on a jump too.. So, my jump with Laura was awesome. I wore this super cute belly suit that was like bright pink and purple and we did some points and tried to sit fly, then Ellen, Jared, Brendan and I did the most complex skydive of the century that didn't work out at all, and ended up with me and Ellen laughing our asses off in freefall. .. but the best thing ever was my third jump that day.. Ryan had been on every load that day with a tandem and he had broken his record with 19.. but that wasn't enough for him.. He wanted to do 20! So I went on my third, and hopefully not last, tandem of my life.

Holy crap.

Tandems are terrifying.

We were in the Otter, the airplane from Skydive Arizona.. Nikki was flying and she took us up to 16,400 feet.

Holy crap.

That's like 3,400 higher than usual!
I was so scared though. Way more scared than I was on even my very first skydive.
I couldn't breathe, I wasn't talking, my mouth was dry.. then when we went to climb out I wouldn't let go of the bar and yeah.. he had to pry my hands off of the plane.

It was such a pretty jump.
Sunset load.
Gorgeous.

Anyway, I was terrified under canopy and I wouldn't let go of the harness and the landing was scary.

I'm just glad I wasn't that scared on my first tandem cause I probably would have never gone again.

Ever.

I need new brakes on my car.
My iPod broke.
I don't live anywhere.. .
I think I'm moving to Salt Lake today.

yada yada..

I went on some dates and everyone is boring and stupid and ugly and I want them to leave me alone..
If your name isn't Skylar or Davy I don't wanna be your friend.

haha.

Beeotch.

I want a new car, and a scooter and I want to do like 40 jumps out of the skyvan and I want to go rollerskating and I want to learn how to swim and go to Hawaii and surf. I want to go to Lost Prairie. I want to have long hair. I want junk food. I want to sleep on a bed.

Skylar and I looked at 6,000 pictures lastnight.
No joke.
6,000.

His were way better than mine cause they were full of cute girls BASE jumping and doing other various awesome things.
Mine were like small tattooed guys with gross beards, wearing only their underpants.

Haha..

Holy crap.
Longest blog ever.
Sorry everyone.

Love you, byebye.

John Mayer sucks.

2007-07-09T15:50:00.000-07:00

It's crazy how music carries so much with it when you experience something while listening to it.

am I making sense?

The whole Continium album of John Mayer's is ruined.

Stop it John, I don't want to think about hanging out with Craig and Eliana, and Craig doing the little mouth guitar sounds to The Heart Of Life.. I don't want to think about Plamer doing it either! I don't want to remember ripping out carpet and painting in our underpants all the time, some times I just want to hear a song! Oh, I definitely don't want to hear that Slow Dancing In A Burning Room song.. oh yeah, and while were at it, MIKA can kiss my ass.

Haha..

I actually love listening to this John Mayer album and remembering the awesome times I've had.. but it does pull a few strings, the strings attached to my tear glands I think.. but I love it, and it definitely makes me feel a bunch of feelings when I hear it.

I'm a scatterbrain right now.
I want to blog. I want to have a decent conversation but my mind keeps wandering and I keep going through my list of things I gotta do.. and as much as I wish that sitting at the coffee shop playing on my compter was at the top of my list, it's actually not, so I gotta bounce.

Tj, take me to Coney Island.

Save me.

Currently listening to We'll All Shine On by John Lennon

me, me, me...

2007-07-09T14:12:00.001-07:00

J u n e 1 4 , 2 0 0 7
This is a few weeks old, it's from my real-life journal but I liked it so I'm moving it over ot the world wide web!

I'm tired.
I want to go to Lagoon.
I want a big, huge sandwich.
I love being so busy.
I'm scared to try the Flowrider.
I love Plamer.
I hope I smell good.
I need more money.
I need a beer.
I like beer now.
I think it's weird that I do.
I need to try more new things.
I need to shock myself.
I need to change the world.
I want a banana.
I want a new car.
I can't believe I do yoga now.
I think that's sexy.
I can't believe TJ moved.
I slept like shit lastnight.
I miss skydiving.
I killed all the flowers I got for my birthday.
I went to the movies with Mike.
I wish I didn't.
I work so much today.
I need more coffee.
I'm so effing tired.

Currently listening to: Imagine by John Lennon

Happy Fourth Of July!

2007-07-05T09:19:00.001-07:00

I hope everyone's holiday was cool, and fun and all that..
I don't really do anything fun on holidays. It was sort of just what I do on any other day. But it's fun.. cause my whole life is fun.. but I don't do anything out of the ordinary I guess is what I mean..

Anyway..
I did a jump with George and Dan Drage out of the Otter. They brought that plane up from Arizona cause our normal jump plane broke last weekend. The Otter is really fast and big. .. but yeah, Plamer jumped into a little park that was doing fireworks or something.. He's all crazy or brave or something, they open the door of the plane while it's still cruisin' along and turning and making my tummy do flip flops and they just chill right there, looking at the ground..

Pukey.

Right before jump run the pilot, Blake, was doing like up and down shit with the plane where one second you feel like your stomach is in your throat and the next it's in your toes. ugh!

Plamer coached me in the tunnel for almost 10 minutes yesterday too.
I was back flying, which I hate and suck at. But it was still fun, ofcourse.

The pilots that came up with the plane are Blake and Nikki and we were friends in Eloy. But they have the cutest dog. I played with her lastnight and it made me miss Dresden so much. Their dog even has eye patches! Her name is Bandit but Blake calls it Monkey Monkey. Which is rad, cause you name your dog something like Dresden and before long his name is Charles, or Turkey Pot Pie or widdle bebe, or you know.. something completely different.

I'm sitting at the coffee shop right now with Skylar and we both have the same MacBook and, needless to say, we look bad as hell.

Oops. I made a pact with myself yesterday that I would try to cut back on swearing, but I'm failing miserably.

I'm going to go to the gym now.

If my mom and dad didn't read this all the time I'd end this with a big, long rambling list of obscenities..
Just to go out with a bang..

love you mom.
love you dad.

crap. fart. heck. poop. freak. butt.

okay, alright.. okay.

2007-06-29T01:15:00.000-07:00

Hi.

I'm really tired, but I need to keep up on this whole blog thing.. so here goes..

I had three jobs..
1. Grounds For Coffee
2. iRock/Flowrider
3. Snowbasin

Then.. I quit Snowbasin, see ya! Now I rock climb a little.. surf a little.. work out a little.. work a little.. I was doing yoga a little but I forgot, and I used to ride my bike with Skylar a lot and he's too busy now so I haven't been doing that either.

The other night Plamer and I made dinner and we put the table out on the porch and ate out there. It's was the cutest thing.. It pretty much made my week.

I went on a 4 hour hike with Davy yesterday, after surfing for an hour at work. Jeeze. Let's just take all of life's pain in one go. Shall we?

I did a skydive with little Nick the other day. It was fun. H's been buying a lot of tunnel time and learning how to fly better on his belly so we actually docked and flew around together. He's getting really good.

I love my two jobs.
I want to fly in the tunnel so bad!

I went to the Apple iPhone release party thing in Salt Lake today. Plamer got one. JEALOUS!
I've always had the newest, hippest, coolest things and I don't have anything cool anymore.
I suck.

I did, however, get a really cute new pair of shorts today.

uh, yeah huh.

Things are going really well.. I just wish I had a maid.
I feel like I do a shit load of laundry and dishes.. yet there is always laundry to be done and dishes to be washed.

What the eff.

My sister Jamie got a new house and a new puppy. She got married a year ago, about, and is doing really awesome and it seems like she's happy and doing really well. Her husband is awesome. I love that guy.

I just keep typing because I'm waiting for Plamer to get sick of his phone so I can play on it.. .
I don't think that's going to happen any time soon.

I can't believe tj lives in New York.
It completely shocks and astounds me.
No joke.

I'm so stoked for him, and it's awesome as hell.. but I miss my friend.

I can't wait to get my arm tattooed more!
I can't wait to skydive more and fly in the tunnel and get good at surfing and climbing and yoga and lose 15 pounds and be the hottest little skydiving, rock climbing, bike riding, tunnel flying, short shorts wearing surfer babe this world has ever seen.

Oh yeah.. and I can't wait to get an iPhone.. cause I'm totally getting one.

Okay. He just handed me the phone.. I gotta play!

xo

I know, I know.. .

2007-06-28T11:36:00.001-07:00

I need to update the world on the who's and
what's ups with me. .. but I never have internet
anymore and I'm lazy as eff. .. but, we already
knew that, right!?

I will soon though.
In the mean time just know that I love you
all and I'm happy, healthy and having fun.

Tootles.. .

The other day.. .

2007-06-04T19:17:00.000-07:00

I went on this really pretty hike. I got a new North Face tank top that looked super cute on me (not to brag.. but it really did!) and I wanted to use it to it's full potential. I thought the best way of doing that was a sweaty hike in the middle of a toasty hot day. Good idea, right?

It was a great idea, except I forgot that for the past few weeks I've been a complete moron and I can't do anything right...

I went on this hike before with Davy and Plamer and we hiked up to this waterfall that you can sorta/kinda see from the porch at our apartment.. but it was super pretty and I thought that I would head up there again.

blah blah blah

I got lost.

I ended up like, way way north and up on the side of a steep ass cliff. I was holding on to a tree that had fallen down and I was like.. okay, seriously.. I'm going to die today.. Like, right now..

I was just like rockin' out with my iPod and running up the trails and then BAM! I'm totally lost and this close to dying.

No big deal.

Anyway, it was pretty fun and my thighs hurt so much the next day that I had thoughts of offing myself.

but I couldn't..
cause it was my BIRTHDAY!

Check out my siQ photos..

crazycrazycrazy

Holy crap!

2007-06-04T11:24:00.000-07:00

I'm 24.

read my mind.

2007-05-24T08:13:00.000-07:00

You know some days you just need people to be nice to you?
You're like, on the verge of tears at any given second..
You can't just walk up to a group of your friends and be like "Okay guys, I need big smiles, big hugs and nice things. Stat." I mean, with a lot of people you could maybe talk to them or be like, man I'm having a bummer day.. and most of my friends are super nice anyway and always hug me and rub my head and all that cuteness.. but I guess I'm mostly talking about my older friends.

Sometimes I get sad that I don't have very many friends.. like, the kids I hung out with before I moved to Eloy..
but the more I think about it the happier I am.

The friends I have now are always nice.
They're always excited to see you.

It's like my old friends only want to be your friend when it's convienient for them.
If you're in a good mood. If you're going to contribute to the excitement. If you're going to entertain them. If you are going to buy them food or hook them up with a ride or something they need..

That's cool and all, but there's more to friendship than that.
Sometimes, I don't want you to make fun of me and put me down and call me out about things I'm already embarrassed about. Why can't you just be understanding? Friendly? Or just shut up.

The person I'm really writing this about doesn't even read my blog!

All I really wanted to say is that I'm having a really shitty week.. so if you're going to talk to me..

"Big smiles, big hugs and nice things."

or else..

oops

2007-05-22T23:08:00.000-07:00

I forgot to tell you that I biffed it pretty bad last week..

Skydiving sucks!

Stoked.

2007-05-22T16:29:00.000-07:00

Hi.

So, here's what's up..
Yesterday was Plamer's Birthday. I didn't get him anything. I'm a jerk.
We woke up and went to the gym. He got buff with Davy and I ran a couple miles and some shit like that...
Then I came home and showered and all that, he went to the tunnel and hung out with Davy some more.

Anyway, later on we went to the Cotton Bottom.. it's a little bar by the mouth of Big and Little Cottonwood Canyon. It's right by my old boss's house. Huge house. Nice area. Crappy bar. Haha.

He had one and a half (!!) of these garlic burgers. So did Davy. Holy stink fest.

Lastnight though, we went to Carson's Condo up in Park City.
It's so pretty up there. We had mojitos and the dudes played poker.
Me, JJ, Dwight, Dusty and Suzanne played Blackjack and bet with egg noodles.

Awesome.

We hot tubbed a little and after we all got sick of looking at Pat's bare ass we decided to call it a night.
We drove all the way from Park City to Ogden at like 1:00am. I was so sleepy.
I put my feet up and talked a bunch like I do.

Anyway, I feel like a crappy person because of my humungous love for birthdays and my lack of being awesome yesterday. I hate being broke and uncreative.

I worked a little today and picked up some shifts this week cause I need a bunch of money.
BUT.. IKEA opens tomorrow! Schwing! I'm so going.
Then I hope I can maybe do a skydive tomorrow, but then I'm going to Salt Lake again to talk to Debi about the ,plan for the weekend and then I'm going to go to Kalvin's Birthday Party. It's almost been a year since I hung out with him.. Weird!

This weekend though, I'm working a little but then I have Sunday and Monday off and I'm going to house sit for the Nelson's. I'm going to sleep there and hopefully work in the garden a little. I get to hang out with Dresden and lay by the pool ... I can't wait!

It's so cold
My hands are vewy vewy cold.

I have 55 skydives.
My birthday is in 12 days!

Holy 24 years old.
old old old old old

yuck.

the latest.

2007-05-06T09:31:00.000-07:00

I think I just got a job at the rock climbing gym that's opening right by the tunnel that Scott's going to be working at. I don't start for a long time, cause they aren't opening till June 15th or something.. I got a free Gold's Gym membership though cause they own it, or whatever.. that's pretty awesome. I've been working out a little.. I've been kinda sick so I've had to take it easy. I dyed my hair brown. It's weird. Bye-Bye Hot Blonde.
I'm sitting at the coffee shop drinking a strawberry-mango smoothie and eating a peanut butter-chocolate chip cookie. I've been craving a peanut butter and honey sandwich so bad for like two weeks now and I haven't gotten to eat one. Which sucks..

I haven't been jumping very much. but this guy I met when I was working down in Eloy was up in Ogden jumping the other day and bought me a jump and Suzanne gave me a free rig rental so I got to do a jump with Brian Wallace. It was way fun.. I wore some crazy looking jumpsuit that Skylar lent me.. hopefully I can get some pictures to show you.. I looked like a clown.

umm..
I worked like 55 hours last week and I was so exhausted. I was going to meet with this personal trainer guy and get like, a plan made out so I can lose like 20 pounds... . but I was too tired after work so I totally just blew him off and took a nap.

Haha.

Plamer is leaving on Monday for like, a week to go to Colorado to fly in the tunnel out there.
15 days till his birthday! He doesn't care.. but I love birthdays.

Okay.
It's crossword time.

Oh yeah.. Teej and I hung out and ate tons of french fries and drank pina coladas and margeritas and stuff, that was way way fun.. I'm so glad I still get to hang out with him..

Okay, seriously.. bye.
Sorry this blog is a wreck.
I haven't had internet for like 2 weeks.
I'm losing my savviness.

Shut up.

Hey.. MOM & DAD

2007-04-24T00:43:00.000-07:00

If you're reading this.. and I'm pretty sure you are..
and I'm pretty sure you're the only ones who are right now..
Feel free to leave comments..

That's what it's here for.
Try it out!

xO

Currently listening to: Muzak at Grounds For Coffee

I really need to get internet at my place..

132nd post, ever.

2007-04-21T17:34:00.000-07:00

I got new Teva flip flops. They're cute, huh?

Currently listening to: Holly Hox, FOrget Me Nots, by Saves The Day!!

e a r t h day

2007-04-21T15:57:00.000-07:00

Hi.

I just got back from the Ogden Nature Center's Earth Day festival.

It was pretty alright.

I went with Jenn, my new friend from work. She's cute.
She bought me lunch and then we headed out there.
We saw some massive eagles and hawks and falcons..
We met up with her friend Tori and his 2 year old daughter.
She was so freakin' adorable.
There was this rock climbing wall and she was like, "I wanna climb the wall"

We lied and said she was 3 years old and they let her go.
She climbed more than half way up and was all gung-ho.

It was awesome.

We got our faces painted, I got a cute bracelet.. we saw like, a million bird houses, went on a little nature walk, chased some turkeys, drank coffee, learned about pottery and I picked up a a little "How-to" guide for Square Foot Gardening. We also got this piece of bio-degradeable paper with flower seeds right in it. If you rip up the paper and bury it some dirt you'll have a bed of wildflowers in just a few weeks.

Sweet.

Since Earth Day is actually tomorrow (stupid Utah crap) I think I'll celebrate again tomorrow.
Maybe I'll finally start planting my garden and go on a hike..
It's my first day off in a while and I'm so burned out.
I want to sleep in and have a real breakfast. (whenever it is that I decide to wake up)

Jenn is having a party at her house tonight and I am also invited to go to dinner with the drop zone dudes..
My life is awesome.

That's about it for now..
thanks for reading.. love you all.. byebye.

Plamer, hurry back!

Currently listening to: Think Long by Mates Of State

f a v o r i t e s

2007-04-19T20:36:00.000-07:00

iced coffee.
books.
sweatpants.
radical face.
stuffed breadsticks.
waterfalls.
hikes.
cute shoes.
new stuff.
free stuff.
sunday night movies.
ponytails.
photobooth pictures.
salad bars.
john mayer.
pina coladas.
the discovery channel.
tofu.
sunshine.
pad thai.
blogs.
goofy pictures.
skydiving.

Currently listening to: You WOuldn't Like Me by Tegan and Sara

Hi Mom & Dad.

2007-04-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

It's fun here.
I skydived a little bit when we first moved back and then I went broke. Skydiving is ridiculously expensive. Screw all those kids who have tons of money.. the ones who own their own businesses at 21, bartend every night, have a stupid trust fund, or win thousands of dollars playing online poker. Screw you guys.

I got a job at the Great Harvest in Ogden and quit it already. I worked at Great Harvest in Salt Lake for almost 4 years and was making over 10 dollars an hour. This guy wanted me to take on all sorts of responsibilities and start me at $6.75 or something.

Yeah right!

Now I have a new job, at Grounds For Coffee. It's pretty sweet.
It's way mellow and laid back. I'm so used to having to run around and work really hard and this is more like hanging out with a bunch of friends and drinking coffee all day. Not that I'm complaining.. I just feel like a slack ass.

We moved in to this condo and it was seriously a wreck. We worked our butts off for a few weeks. Ripping up linoleum, sub-flooring, more linoleum and some tile.. which was all pleasantly caked with mold and mildew.

The Discovery Channel taught me that fungus is really the only way a rainforest can survive and flourish.. but I definitely don't need any in my kitchen. Thanks.

We ripped up carpet, painted every inch of the walls and baseboards, Plamer and Skylar laid some dope ass Pergo and now we're finally all settled in.

I ride my bike a little bit.. xNiQx has sleepovers over here sometimes.. we go out to dinner way too much, I have a bunch of new friends, We go to movies every Sunday night with the dudes from the drop zone. We saw Grindhouse last week, Reign Over Me the Sunday before that and we just saw The Perfect Stranger last night..

Plamer got HD tv from Dish Network or something and now I'm glued to this damn couch watching everything from hunting for blood worms to Coyote Ugly try outs.. both of which are totally rad.. right?

I just bought the Greatest Hits from Bjork with a gift card that Tim & Debi gave me for Christmas.. I really like this crazy little lady..

Okay. Time for some coffee..
Love you all. Enjoy your week.

Hooray! My taxes are done.

Currently listening to: Joga by Bjork

I am made of blue sky and hard rock and I will live this way forever.

2007-04-16T07:46:00.000-07:00

I'm in the middle of one of those creative whirlwinds I
used to find myself talking a lot more about a few years back.

No one is here to be sucked in with me.

I tried playing some piano.. I was trying to think of a good story to write.
Almost like an autobiography.

Yeah, I really do think I'm that interesting.

I feel like there is so much inside of me and I don't have any way of expressing it.

I find myself tearing up over music and books all the time now..
Some of this shit is just so good.
I always find myself wishing that I had come up with it..

I wish I could write music.
I wish I could write amazing, wonderful stories that people would give a shit about.

I wish I could inspire someone the way I feel inspired by every single person I meet.

I feel like my heart and lungs and maybe even my kidneys are about to burst
out of my body. I feel so sad, and alone.. yet so overwhelmed with happiness,
friendship and love.. I'm an over abundance of emotions. I have nothing to to
do to get this out of me. Another early night to bed. Another early morning to work.

ahh!

I remember staying up till 3 am just because I decided I had to make a painting..
or I had to make a song.. a shirt.. or a stencil.. None of it was ever any good.
I am a self loathing ship wreck, yet I think I'm so damn amusing and so one-of-kind.

I'm not.

I'm just like any other girl.. but maybe a little less interesting,
a little less smart, a little less cute.. but trust me,
you want to get to know me.

What am I talking about?

I wrote this a few nights ago and I'm posting it only because it's stupid and funny and interesting to see what I will write after like 12 cups of coffee while sitting up all alone at 2:00 am..

I'm CRAZY..

Currently listening to: Welcome Home, Son by Radial Face

Weird.

2007-03-01T19:49:00.000-08:00

I haven't worked in 11 days.

I probably won't work for 11 more.
Maybe 11 more after that.. .

I can no longer work at Skydive Arizona.
I can no longer live in Eloy because of it.

Here's my plan. (I think.)

I'm leaving here in, let's see.. a week (?) to go to Utah.
Scott and I are taking all of our stuff up there and dumping it some place and going to Modesto, California for a week or so. Yeah, Modesto.. what? I hope I can make it over to San Francisco and eat at Herbivore. I need some Vegan Carrot Cake like you wouldn't believe.

I just got back to Eloy after being in Salt Lake for a week.
It was awesome. Sort of.

I went snowboarding with my darling sister.. and Kyle..
We took some awesome tourist photos.. jibbed some shit.. we totally tore it up.
I got to spend a lot of time with tJ and Dresden <3 .. Dres and I actually did snow angels and I tackled his ass and white washed him good. I ate at all my favorite places, visited my family, took it easy and relaxed. I actually slept till 10:00 am one of the days I was there. Bob hooked me up with an electric blanket. It was dope. I couldn't believe that one morning I stayed at tJ's and I went outside to find like 8 inches of snow on my car. Frakin' nuts! tJ has pictures to prove it. I'll show you some time.

Leaving sucked.

Being really stressed out about coming back and not having a job and dealing with all the drama that was going on was really making me nervous and sick. But I wanted to come back and figure things out..

The drive from here to there and there to here SUCKS.
I was stuck on the damn Hoover Dam for like an hour and a half or something.
I tried to play Solitaire on my phone and I ended up getting car sick.
I can't believe my car made it there, up the canyon a few times, all over the Salt Lake Valley and back to Eloy without so much as a blinking check engine light, ya know? That thing is a major piece of garbage.

So, those of you who know me, and know me well, know that I work all the time, and when I do something I make sure I do a damn fine job of it. What's the point of doing something unless you can look back and be proud of the way it ended or turned out, right? Well, I worked my ass off for these Arizonian whores and what do I get out of it? umm, nothing. I get black listed. Ostracized. Banished.

Fuck them.

Working 72 hours a week is fun and all. .. but I have other things to do.
thankyouverymuch.

Well, I hope my plan of not really having a plan works out in the best possible way.
Scott quit his job (whoa) because of the way they treated me and I couldn't have asked for more support and love from him and from the friends I've made out here. I still can't believe the amount of love these people have showed me. I showed up out of nowhere, not knowing a thing about the way things work on drop zones or the whole skydiving world and they welcomed me with open arms, hearts and minds. I will never forget the times I've had out here. Some of the best days of my life have been in the middle of nowhere, in the desert, 60 miles from the nearest city..

I hope my life continues to be filled with as much love and laughter as the past 6 months have been.

Go kiss somebody!
love you all.
xo

I am the hero of this story.
I don't need to be saved.

Currently listening to: Hero by Regina Spektor..

uh-oh.

2007-02-17T14:35:00.000-08:00

I'm depressed.

That's stupid.
Am I in junior high?
Should I slit my wrists with a box cutter
in the wrong direction just to get attention?

blah.

It's sunny.
I have the day off.
and I'm fucking depressed.

late.

Currently listening to: Cherish by Madonna..

I'm awesome.

2007-02-08T09:30:00.000-08:00

I saved my room mates from certain death.

more later...

swipey swipey

2007-02-08T09:28:00.000-08:00

I saw this on Courtney's boyfriend's My Space page and thought it was really awesome..

"I'm pretty cynical and resentful lately. I feel like I, that all of us, should be doing bigger, greater things. Time to start living like you mean it. But at the same time I'm overwhelmed with hopelessness. I lack the conviction to do what's necessary, further still I fear I lack the abillity to make any difference anyway."

word.

bummer.

2007-02-02T14:36:00.000-08:00

I went to do some skydives the other day and there wasn't a rig for me.
Then I went another day and the rig I needed was getting repacked.
Today, same story.

I thought I would be able to skydive a lot easier once I had my A license,
but as it turns out.. it's actually a lot harder.

Not for everyone.
Not all the time.
Just right now, for me.

The planets must not be aligned.

I'm going to look for some shit to buy tonight
Hey money, see ya later.

xO

Currently listening to: All The Go Inbetweens by The Silversun Pickups.

why? why? why?

2007-01-30T14:34:00.000-08:00

Why can't the whole world be vegan?

Seriously.

Why is everyone so ~~dumb~~ numb?!!

I finally did it.

2007-01-27T06:33:00.000-08:00

I got my A license yesterday.
That took forever!
I went on my first skydive off student status yesterday.
Number 26.

I went with Plamer.
It was the second to last load of the day.
It was beautiful.
He took me out in like, a head down exit.
(yikes)
Not like I really did it like youre supposed to, but it was fun. Our friend Herb was still in the plane and he was waving at us and Plamer waved back. That shit weirds me out. Every jump I go on I become more and more aware of other things going on. But, to notice someone in the plane waving at you while you're jumping out is kinda weird. It's awesome. Haha.
Anyway.
Yesterday was easily one of the funnest days of my life.
After my first jump for the day I was like "That was the funnest skydive I've ever made." Then after my second jump that day I was like, "Okay, that was the funnest skydive I've ever made." and ofcourse, after my third jump I was like, "Okay, seriously. That was the most fun I've ever had. Ever.

Front flips. Back flips. Barrel rolls. Acting crazy. Falling through the sky at 120 miles an hour. Kiss passes!

oh jeeze.

It's 6:30 a.m. right now.
I didn't sleep very well lastnight.
I sorta celebrated too much.

What can I say? I'm a little kid.
Silly things excite me..I'm going to try to go back to sleep for a couple of hours, then to the gym, then more jumpy time!
I bought an altimeter yesterday AND little goggles.
Oh man, I'm so excited.

Get some sleep,
eat your veggies,
wash behind your ears.
And hey, here's a huge cupcake

love you. bi.

Currently listening to: Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol.

update.

2007-01-27T03:15:00.000-08:00

The mousey didn't make it.

do you remember what I like?

2007-01-25T21:26:00.000-08:00

remember when I made the post about things I like?
If not please click here, it's about half way down the page..

I was reading it the other day and it made me sort of sad.
Preety much evrything on that list doesn't pertain to my life anymore.

I need it all back.
I need to make a new list.
I need a massage.
haha.

xo

more on that thought..

2007-01-25T21:08:00.000-08:00

Why was I getting so mad at things out here?
This is so temporary.
I'm not going to live here forever.
I'm not going to work for some shitty-ass boss who thinks recycling is only for hippies forever.
I'm not going to see these people every single day and night forever.
Most of the people out here come and go before you can even decide if you like them or not.

I got a gym membership.
I am finally finding time to read again, and make meals at home.
My rooms all tidy and my laundry's all clean.
I want to try yoga.

Happiness really is just a conscious thought away.

It's like when Terra and Alesha at Great Harvest would get stressed out over something. No matter how big or small the issue was they would just stop in the middle of a raging rant and start dancing. Hopping up and down, flipping their hair around, singing at the tops of their lungs. Fuck the world. Dance it up. Do whatever makes you happy. Eff everybdy else.

I found vegan pudding today and some vegan chocolate chip cookies.
It's dessert time.

Currently listening to: Saw 2 Creepy!

p.s. there is a tiny mouse running around in the house these days and today we got mouse traps.
I really hope he gets his shit together and moves out. I don't want to find him one morning with a snapped back and a mouthful of peanut butter.

run mousey, run!

happiness is just a conscious thought away.

2007-01-22T00:29:00.000-08:00

hi hi hi
So, I think everyone out here thinks I'm mean.
I know I can be bitchy.
I know I can be short and I get stressed out.
Don't we all?
I know I'm not very fun to hang out with.
I'm not like, carefree and easy going, per se.

but, I seriously hope people don't see me as some grumpy little girl.
(little? ha!)

Speaking of being absurdly overweight..
I just went to this gym in Casa Grande.
That's a little town like 10 miles from where I live, for those who don't know what it's like to live in the middle of nowhere.
I worked out for like, an hour.
It was pretty sweet.
This girl Maxine that I met on the drop zone was there.It was really rainy this morning so I couldn't jump.
I want to go check out some record stores and restaurants in town.
Or, I might head in to Tucson tonight. I've never been there.

The clouds are clearing and the sun is peaking through, I better go get showered and head to the drop zone.
Two more jumps till my A license!
yum yum yum

Love you all.
I hope I don't scare you
or come off as a bitch.
I really do love you.

haha.

xo

Currently listening to: Teardrop by Massive Attack

ouch!

2006-12-16T08:11:00.000-08:00

So yesterday I did a couple coach jumps.
I currently have 14 jumps. ..
2 tandems.
7 AFF jumps.
2 solos.
1 hop & pop. (which was so much fun)
2 coach jumps.

Anyway.
I'm excited.
I hurt my ankle on my first landing yesterday though and then I bartended all night.. now I have to go bartend again and standing hurts like a mutha!

This shitty cold is going around and I woke up with a sore throat and a effed up head.
Please make it stop!

I got my hair cut the other day and it's crap.
It's so short.
Hey Teej, remember the other day when I was like:
"For once, I'm really stoked on my hair."

Yeah. About that ...
sucks sucks sucks

Oh yEAH! I'm going to Salt Lake for ONE day. On December 28th. (Mark your calendars) I'm hopefuly going to land, get tattooed and then hop in xNiQ'sx car and drive back down. He's coming to Eloy for the Holiday Boogie. Holy crap, I haven't been this excited about something in a long, long time. Hopefully I can get my A license by then so we can jump out of airplanes and love eachother.. I'm so freakin' excited

Okay, shower time!
Love you all, bye bye

Currently listening to: Drop and Anchor by Mates Of State

ofcourse it's the first thing i did..

2006-12-10T21:08:00.000-08:00

so, I got a new macbOok.
it's friggin sweet as hell.
I was making real good money for a few weeks there and I did a few skydives, got some tunnel time, and some kick ass coaching, (thanks Plamer) and then I decided to get tattooed and pierced and get this new sweetness. I love this little guy. It's so much better than my iBook. I thought I was tough shit with the iBook too.. look at me now.

although I tried pretty hard to not do what I did. .. the first thing I played with was photo booth and front row..

Here's some sweet pictures from me and Plamer's photo shoot.
We're nerds.
Click here for more!

I'm happy.
Everything is friggin' awesome.
I love the warm.
I love the sun.
I love the tunnel.
I love having my car.
I love riding my bike in the middle of December!
I hate this cold I have.

Plamer got me some freakin' sweet ass tough as hell tires for my road bike so that I can cruise arond out here without getting a flat tire every time. I bought a silly mountain bike from WalMart that I used a few times. It's bright pink. It's hot. It's hard going from a super speedy road bike to a super heavy mountain bike.

Anyway, yeah.. I guess the tires were my Christmas present but he couldn't wait.
That's how I am too, though.

I'm excited for Christmas!!
I only have a few friends though so I don't get to buy a bunch of presents like I normally do. I'm missing the Great Harvest crew in Salt Lake. I love doing Christmas there.

I need some more tea.
Love you allllll...
goodnight!

xo

Currently listening to: my sniffling nose

oh phew!

2006-12-10T08:41:00.000-08:00

Blogger,
I thought I lost you..
Don't scare me like that ever again.

Sincerely,
Stephanie